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Post by southernguy on Aug 12, 2012 7:06:58 GMT -8
So glad to hear that you have good days. I was worried yesterday when I read the post because I could hear the pain and it reminded me of my own. I'm so glad you have a great spouse. I do too! And I have one who's not nearly as crazy as me, which is odd, because I have always been a magnet for maniacs. Good grief, I have attracted some serious lunatics in my life (but that's another story, even though it is one related to CI in my humble estimation). You know I would read (or watch) your tragicomedy. So glad to hear you're living and unlearning (me too!). Keep in touch!
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Post by sadnesseen on Jan 14, 2013 16:50:03 GMT -8
It's been so long since I came to this page .... i still have flashbacks. Even though no sexual abuse occured, i feel like my parents were weird for having me sleep in their bedroom until I was nearly 10 years old. I was cheated of a normal life, as I now am 53 years old and full of rage and regret. My brother will not admit it was wrong that I slept in their bedroom. This really bothers me. He had his own bedroom. He has cheated and stolen from me my entire life. I am not happy about it. My sister also never said it was wrong. Neither did my aunt. Only my friends and classmates.
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Post by Moriji on Jan 14, 2013 22:58:12 GMT -8
Sorry to hear that your family is still in denial. But it's quite common in incest families. At least you know people outside of the family who were aware that something was wrong inside your family. I too found refuge at school.
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Post by bonyg on Jan 17, 2013 13:32:22 GMT -8
As a female covert incest victim, I would like to talk to a male who has been through covert incest, but who is no longer in denial about this. Maybe we would fit together like two parts of jigsaw, as we would understand each-other, whatever type of relationship it is. I do feel that perhaps this would result in a relationship that works. It is difficult for someone without this experience to relate to me I feel. I have recently had therapy and so am completely aware of why I am the way I am, and why I used to have difficulties in relationships. The therapy has been painful but so enlightening and I am healing. Any male victims of covert incest/sexual abuse are welcome to email me at: bonygspace@gmail.com.
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Post by Moriji on Feb 8, 2013 14:38:57 GMT -8
While I do not have a problem with people meeting people from here, I would like to remind everyone though that you can never be 100% sure about a person's identity online so be careful. In other words, watch out for scams (I need $5000 or else something will happen to me, etc.) or worse (predators preying on survivors). As a female covert incest victim, I would like to talk to a male who has been through covert incest, but who is no longer in denial about this. Maybe we would fit together like two parts of jigsaw, as we would understand each-other, whatever type of relationship it is. I do feel that perhaps this would result in a relationship that works. It is difficult for someone without this experience to relate to me I feel. I have recently had therapy and so am completely aware of why I am the way I am, and why I used to have difficulties in relationships. The therapy has been painful but so enlightening and I am healing. Any male victims of covert incest/sexual abuse are welcome to email me at: bonygspace@gmail.com.
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Post by sadnesseen on Feb 13, 2013 9:50:33 GMT -8
I never reply to personal emails. VERY paranoid person i am from years of being used and abused. I guess i just say what i have to say and get out. That is the best way for me.
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Post by violinrichmond on Jul 31, 2013 20:01:15 GMT -8
I wanted to introduce myself. I am a Violinist in Dallas Texas and a Juilliard and Yale Grad. I will not hide from my story and today I am at peace in my fight against covert incest/emotional incest. I thank you for this group and I look forward to telling you much more about my story soon.
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Post by sadnesseen on Aug 26, 2013 15:37:00 GMT -8
Nothing changes. I have nothing but toxic rage and ultimate hatred for my sister and her carbon copy piece of garbage daughter. They are smart to keep their distance from me. If I find out they are both dead, I would be an extremely happy person! They are NOTHING but the most disgusting pitiful useless garbage to me. I hate them both worse than cancer. I wish nothing but the ultimate WORST on both their pathetic ugly lives. MAY THEY BOTH ROT IN HELL!!!!
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Post by sadnesseen on Aug 26, 2013 16:51:03 GMT -8
Not to mention my mother hoarding a quarter of a million dollars while I was SUFFERING in pain with crohns disease, my wife and I were down to our last $800 in our bank account. Did my mother offer anything? ABSOLUTELY NOT. Being slaves to my mother, cutting her lawn, buying her groceries, putting her garbage out while she LIED to our faces, saying she was on a fixed income, acting poor and hopeless, playing on our empathy and giving personalities. BOY WERE WE DUPED!!! My brother becomes POA when my father was put in a nursing home, my brother then proceeded to flush hundreds of thousands of dollars down the toilet. I may have gotten $30,000 maximum, while my mother paid my worthless sisters mortgage for 5 YEARS $550 a month ---------- and my sister did NOTHING -------- NOT ONE VISIT, while my wife and I were given crumbs, used and abused at my mothers disposal. My mother was a true psychotic sociopath who preyed on the kindness and weakness of others. IT WAS OF NO SURPRISE TO ME WHEN I FOUND OUT SHE HAD ELECTRO SHOCK THERAPY before she got pregnant with me [ I was the ''accidental baby'', I guess catholics aren't allowed to get abortions?]. My brother made sure he threw it up to me that she gave me $10grand towards a new car, when HE had no problem buying his spoiled 20 year old daughter a new car, probably invested at least HALF A MILLION in his daughter. But me? The worthless unwanted slave child surrogate spouse? He acted like I deserved NOTHING. My brother is nothing but a worthless greedy pig that only cares about money and fake appearances. He abused me throughout my childhood and I will NEVER forgive him for it!! I hope he ALSO rots in hell for what he did to me. I also hope my mother is ROTTING IN HELL as I write this, she did nothing but LIE, CHEAT and RIP ME OFF. Acted like it was a crime that I got married at 36 years old. Poor mama, lost her surrogate husband. Pathetic psychotic pig!!!
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Post by sadnesseen on Mar 27, 2014 21:11:32 GMT -8
Wow. Just read my post and saw all this rage from last summer. Strange...I've been having mixed emotions. I guess I have some great funny memories of ALL family members but...they all got destroyed by greediness I think. My mother was nice to me sometimes...but as soon as I got married she turned weird and resentful/jealous. I was her last child----but I was 36 years old! She called my sister crying saying she missed me----I spoke to her on the phone almost every day and we lived 5 minutes away from her!!!! JEEZ! We also went to visit her 3 or 4 times a week...too much. My wife found it EXCRUCIATING to sit at the kitchen table and listen to my mother complain about my father...she was 74, my father was 83. I mean the money thing REALLY destroyed everything ---- I found the bank statement after she went to the nursing home in 2008--she had [all my FATHERS money, my mother did NOT work, she was a HOUSEWIFE] $225,000.00 All those years from 1997, we thought she was poor, on a fixed income because that is what she told us. That felt so devastating. Why would she lie? Why would she pay my sisters mortgage for 6 years [ the daughter, and niece, who HATED her] and not offer to help us when WE DID EVERYTHING. My sister never even went to visit her [ though she lived 4 hours away, so that's always a good excuse ] What an evil, despicable thing for my mother to do. I mean...why did she love money more than me? These questions will never be answered.
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Post by sadnesseen on May 8, 2015 15:23:09 GMT -8
One year and 2 months later....I read all my posts and it feels so strange. Though I am 55 years old now, I still feel like the 8 year old child that was married to my parents. I miss my parents. I'm probably still married to them in some part of my brain...my father used to give me a ride to work when I was 34 years old! He really didn't want to let me go. He missed me when I moved out of their house but at least he accepted it better than my mother did. But after I found out my mother had electro shock therapy in the late 1950s, the pieces of the puzzle started to fall together. Mental illness runs rampant in our family. My mother and father had emotional problems and so did my brother and sister. And so do I. Oh well. Life goes on. I guess. I miss my fathers garden very much.
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