Post by scandinavian71 on Feb 29, 2024 12:14:15 GMT -8
Hello!
I'm glad I found this forum.
I am a survivor of my mother's covert sexual abuse.
This took place when I was a kid. I am now over fifty years old. It has taken me all this time to grasp the full picture of what happened back then; as well as the disastrous consequences this has had for my entire life, from being an adolescent to today, when I am over fifty years old.
My relationship with my mother is, to this very day, a form of Emotional incest.
A few facts:
1. My whole adult life, I have been more or less in contact with psychiatry.
2. I have two psychiatric diagnoses, but suspect that they both could be replaced with C-PTSD and that they are the result of my childhood trauma.
3. My mother treated me as a daughter, not a son; so the abuse was like mother/daughter abuse, one might say.
4. My mother's early abuse caused me to believe I was transgender, i.e. a girl/woman.
5. My mother's early abuse caused me to recreate our covert sexual relationship in my own sexual life/fantasies as an adult.
I have three major problems today:
1. How to deal with my mother, who is old now?
2. It is difficult to find information about (covert) maternal incest.
3. It is almost impossible to communicate my experiences to others, e.g. my family members.
Although the book is about mother/daughter incest, I highly recommend "The Last Secret" by Bobbie Rosencrans. It is no longer available for purchase, but can be accessed via the Internet Archive.
Your friend from up North
I'm glad I found this forum.
I am a survivor of my mother's covert sexual abuse.
This took place when I was a kid. I am now over fifty years old. It has taken me all this time to grasp the full picture of what happened back then; as well as the disastrous consequences this has had for my entire life, from being an adolescent to today, when I am over fifty years old.
My relationship with my mother is, to this very day, a form of Emotional incest.
A few facts:
1. My whole adult life, I have been more or less in contact with psychiatry.
2. I have two psychiatric diagnoses, but suspect that they both could be replaced with C-PTSD and that they are the result of my childhood trauma.
3. My mother treated me as a daughter, not a son; so the abuse was like mother/daughter abuse, one might say.
4. My mother's early abuse caused me to believe I was transgender, i.e. a girl/woman.
5. My mother's early abuse caused me to recreate our covert sexual relationship in my own sexual life/fantasies as an adult.
I have three major problems today:
1. How to deal with my mother, who is old now?
2. It is difficult to find information about (covert) maternal incest.
3. It is almost impossible to communicate my experiences to others, e.g. my family members.
Although the book is about mother/daughter incest, I highly recommend "The Last Secret" by Bobbie Rosencrans. It is no longer available for purchase, but can be accessed via the Internet Archive.
Your friend from up North