Post by hopeingodtoday on Dec 25, 2023 17:04:34 GMT -8
hey ,
i am a boy, man,
i recently turned 30,
i feel like there is an enmeshment with my mum
she always told me everything against my will,
we children also shared her bed whenever we were sick or lonely or for a nap well into adolescence and adulthood.
my realtionship with my girlfriend got really weird when we became very close after like a year and i felt like she is my sister and had zero libido with her but with other stranger girls i did.
i recently watched the movie teddy bear.
i watch youtube videos on the topic.
my mum raised me and sister alone starting when we were 8.
me and my mum are way to close i feel. she always tells me how special i am and how much she needs me.
she also comments on how im similar to dad in leaving her when i wanna go abroad.
everything is so weird but she is in denial. she has also been depressed for ever i know and it wayed me down alot.
im also pretty depressed sometimes,. i used to have a porn problem and still have sometimes but much better.
i also had many shortterm sexual interactions with girls.
i feel sadness and anger in my heart. i feel dull and numb.
i believe in miracles, and i wont give up hope.
may god bless you and rescue us all.
your fellow sufferer from europe. ( i would be down for a call and open to discuss and share books videos of psychologists and explore help, healing ...)