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Post by spd on Mar 1, 2015 19:58:40 GMT -8
hi, i'm new here. i don't really know what to say. i've been in therapy for a while and have just started talking about my relationship with my dad and how "yuck" it felt growing up and how he used me for emotional support and to feel good about himself and how i was his favorite daughter and how my parents put me constantly in the middle of their fighting forcing me to take sides....it feels painful. my therapist called it "emotional incest", which was hard to hear, but also validating in some ways....like oh i'm not crazy. i have so many feelings about it and feel so confused about it all. i don't know what to share here, so hopefully this is ok. i guess that's all, thanks.
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Post by naomi on Mar 4, 2015 20:13:09 GMT -8
Hi; I'm new here too.
Going to therapy can be a very difficult, but very rewarding thing. I am waiting until I am able to go again and it seems like forever. There is so much I want to talk about yet, part of me is afraid. For years I tried to deny or mostly forget what happened, and talking about it openly makes it seem much more real.
Welcome. Hopefully you will find some healing here in all of us sharing our stories.
I, too, have many confusing feelings. Conflicting feelings. I would describe it as ambivalence, because sometimes I alternate between opposite feelings quite quickly. As a child I liked the attention my father gave me, even though I now see it as inappropriate. Part of me still craves that attention, and it bothers me, but I feel powerless over it.
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