Post by barnes66 on Jan 16, 2015 11:41:10 GMT -8
When I was 15 my dad took us shopping with my younger sister who was 12 at that time. He bought was clothes.
However , a month later when I got home from school he told me that he wants to buy me clothes so he was going to take my measurements with a tape measure. So he bought a note pad and a pen.so I was like sure and didn't think anything out of it.Then he made me take off all my clothes and I only had my underwear on and I was top less .This happened 3 or five times and the last time it happened he touched my breast and try to take my underwear off but I stopped him.
He didn't even buy the clothes after all from what I remember .He was obviously was just using that as an excuse and took advantage of the situation.
Then that was also another incident when I was alone in the house and he told me that he wanted to see if the eczema on my back is getting worse. I said no its fine then he got angry and said ``Your mom is not here``i am the one who checks these things!(my mom is deceased)He then made me take off my clothes and I only had an underwear on and then that was it. I am not sure why he made me do all that .
Another incident was one time I was sitting alone in my room then he came in and tried to sit very close to me without saying anything. Then my step sister who was 6 at that time came in immediately in the room and stood on the door and observed .Then he backed off and left my room. Then he came back again after few minutes and my step sister came back and followed him to watch him then he left my room and left me alone. It was weird. He was obviously up to no good
Then when I was 18,he asked me to come and wash his back in the shower .I refused and told him that he should ask his wife to do that and not me. He then said its not a big deal and tried to lure me but I finally stood up to him and refused. He would try to do things like this when no one is around so he obviously knew it was wrong and inappropriate .
The weird thing is, I started getting flash backs of these incidents few years after I moved out of his house. My first flash back was when I was 21 .They come and linger for a while then they go away. They have been coming and going away over the years and I am now 29.I don't talk to my father anymore since I resent him and feel anger towards him.it its haunts me to this day. I just want it to leave my mind and forget about it already I planning to see a therapist but money is tight. I don't seem to remember anything else that happened when I lived with him but I remember those incidents clearly
So my question is, would that be considered sexual abuse? why am I still getting flash backs ? Is it because I never dealt with this and now its coming after me?
