Post by lizzyhaldane on Dec 21, 2013 7:40:20 GMT -8
i feel as if i have finally found a home with these boards.... i've only just recently come to the realization that i am a victim of covert incest. i always knew there was something more to my hatred of my father, and now there is a name for it. my father is a sex/pornography addict, bipolar, emotionally and physically abusive, with a terrible temper. 3 years out of rehab. growing up with him was hell, and seeing him still married to my mother (who denies the severity of my childhood at any moment) is horrible. i can't count how many times i caught him looking at my chest or making disgusting remarks about my teenaged friends. he looked at porn on my personal computer, a website designed to make adult women look like teens. he'd take me on "car trips" that were just him complaining about my mother to me. he would call my shoes 'f**k me' pumps. i can't count how many times i've found his porn around the house. i feel disgusting, and am incapable of having a sexually healthy relationship with my parents. my parents are still married, but i'm fighting tooth and nail to get that worthless man out of my life. please... someone talk to me.
