My father was incestuous in many ways...

[gabriella]

I am a survivor of covert incest. My father was incestuous in many ways:
-My older sister played the role of his emotional spouse.
-He had sex with my aunt (my mom's sister).
-He had sex in front of his daughter (my little sister when she was three years old)
-He practiced voyeurism with me and exhibitionism.
-Etcetera
Now that I write it horrifies me.
It was many time ago and he is dead. I am a mature woman and the damage is done, but I want to understand how affected me.
Regards for everybody!  
(Excuse me  for my English, my first language is spanish)

[holysnappzors]

Jul 4, 2015 14:30:37 GMT -8 gabriella said:

Now that I write it horrifies me. 


What he did to you and the rest of your family was horrifying. It's common for abusers to try to pass the shame/blame off to their victims for many (many) reasons, but you shouldn't feel ashamed to admit what happened to you. Recovery is difficult and bumpy, but talking about what happened to you is an important step.